If You Want Love, Then Make It.

I have problems right now.
I mean, everyone has issues obviously.
That's a given.
But.
My mom isn't supporting my Christian life;
and to be honest, my friends at school are just about the exact opposite of Christians.
They have sex. They drink. They try drugs. They judge people. They think they are superior.
But i love them.
And to be honest once again;

i don't know if  i'd have friends at my school if i were to leave them?

My school is rather typical.
Or at least my grade is.
There's this mass group of people that everyone claims to like and consider themselves popular.
I used to be in that group.
Then i had a tough year, and i shoved them away.
Them being them, left me be.
They didn't need me, and quite frankly, they didn't want me.


Now what? i have new friends.
And this upsets my mother.
She wants me to be popular again.
Seriously, ma?
I've even explained to her that i don't want to hang around a mass group of people who pretend to like me and all talk crap about eachother.  I don't need it, i don't want it.

So my mom is ridiculous.
She sees my friends.
She sees that i have two groups.
The Christians, and the opposites.
But all my christian friends don't go to my school.
Most of them are in college.

I spend all my time with them, and my mom doesn't get it?
One of my best friends is a senior in college and all my mom ever says about her is that she needs to hang with people her own age.

Mom.
SHE DOES.
SHE BRINGS ME WITH CAUSE MY SCHOOL SUCKS.

But my mom is dumb. She's the kind of person who'd rather have quantity than quality. She believes you should care what people think about you. She judges others as if they're all dressed in rainbow poopsicles.

I'm the opposite. She doesn't understand that.
So we fight. And i just disobey her every word cause her rules don't apply to my life.

Anyone gott suggestions?
Hit me up.
Twitter: lexatfirstsight.

Would you lay with me and just forget the world?

Well today I’ve done nothing.

I was up until 4 am.

All I’ve done today so far is watch Bill Madison and now Varsity Blues.

Oh dear. Two America Classics.

YOU BLEW IT.

And I don’t know any Varsity Blues quotes cause this is the first time I’m watching it.

But now I’m realizing all the references in the Not Another Teenage Movie.

Hmmph.

WOD:  Vulpine Meaning: cunning or crafty.

Well. The coach’s vulpine behavior got his star athlete’s career screwed over.

So. Who names their dog after their school?

Oh yeah. My dad.

Our dog’s name is Eastwood. I go to Eastwood High School.

That’s just dumb. But he’s a good dog so I guess it works out.

He’s eleven years old now.

I love him to death but after all this time I still think his name is stupid.

If What You've Lost Cannot Be Found, And The Weight Of The World Weighs You Down.

If What You"ve lost cannot be found, and the weihg tof the world wiehg you down.
is what my title originally said.
hmmph.
cold fingers or dyslexia?

Well.
CONFUSION.
I have:
Twitter.
Facebook.
This.
Youtube.
& A Journal.

Facebook is now turning lame cause i don't really like anyone on it.
Youtube i just use to watch others.
Twitter/ Journal/ & Blog however.
I use these just to express thoughts right?
Welll i don't want to STOP using any of them,
but how willl i fill each of their needs?
They love me just as i love them!
AHHH.
Whatever willl i do?
I don't know.

hmm. ommph. la la.

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there, cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Ohh Nickelback.
How i love you so.
Well now it's a quarter to 3 am.


Maybe i'll just go without sleep tonight. Notta wink.
Sounds good to me.

Can't Carry It With You If You Want To Survive.

My titles will never make sense, I promise you.
Does this thing have spell check?
My fingers suck at typing when cold.
Anywho, the title will always be lyrics I believe.
I'm too lazy to think of something creative.
GAH.
Cracking knuckles.
I wonder how many people that bothers.
One of my teachers prefer nails on a chalkboard to cracking knuckles.
ICK.
Uhm.
SO.
First post.
-awkward.-

I'd LOVE to have a video blog instead, but i look like POO on most days so that would just be inconveinent.
That's not spelled right. I think.
Uhm. Well.
Hello World.
It is almost 2:30 am.
This is ridiculous.
I won't even remember i have a blog when i wake up later.
hmmmph.
good idea?
Why NOT?!
Okay.

How come my word of the day doesn't always come from dictionary.com?
So upsetting.

Well.Today's WOD is Cacoesthes. Meaning: an irresistible urge; mania.

Welll.
i had a cacoethes to start a blog.
WHOOPIE.
Goood nighht.